Wednesday 13 April 2011

Dustbin Baby.

Maybe it was the lead up to The Gatwick Baby: Abandoned at... Maybe it's just a coincidence, but today a baby was found. The BBC news website is showing a story of a newborn baby who was found dumped in a bin liner! i feel sick! I understand people go through different things and things happen but no matter what the circumstances, to leave your baby, dead or alive in a bin liner take some sort of person!! As i read on i held Olivia tighter, my stomach turning as i imagined a tiny baby screaming, dying slowly and painfully as its mother walked away. Maybe thats not how it happened, but in my head this is how it is. The Gatwick Baby is on at the moment and the figures are astounding, At least 4 babies in 2010 were abandoned with no trace of parents ever being found! Even worse, only ONE of those babies survived! I feel sick and really hope SOMEONE can explain to me any reason in this!!!! I cannot sympathise....i would like to be more understanding, but as a mother i will never understand dumping your child.

Monday 4 April 2011

Blinking life away.

I sat on my bed bouncing Olivia to sleep, she is still waking through the night. At 5 months we've been pretty unlucky with her sleep patterns but i guess it will get better some time soon. I sat there thinking, she is 5 months old; 5 months! she is almost half a year and i honestly don't understand where it has all gone? i look back at pictures of her as a newborn and then i realise how much she has changed. As a child you wish your life away. It is always about reaching that next milestone, i don't remember when it changed. I try to think back to the first time i wished life would slow down and i can't. I cant remember when i started wanting things to just stop for a while. I know i will try and tell Olivia to not wish to be older and to enjoy life slowly. I know, like i told my mum she will tell me to stop being silly and to let her buy make up and date boys. I wonder at what age she will realise just how quickly 'time flys'. I used to think it was a silly expression. Now i know it's life.

Olivia a few weeks old:

Olivia 5 months old:

Love you sweetie.....x